I’m waiting for a new YouTube video to finish uploading and I’m thinking listening to this guy on Success Insider giving a list of the 5 bad habits that stop you from gaining success. I gotta admit that I’m a my own worst hurdle. I love to self sabotage. Even though I didn’t really use …

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My blog has transformed a lot over the years. I believe it been about 6 or more years. I can’t really remember off hand. The next transformation is going to be an actual journal. So boring right? Hahaha, probably. My life has become more relaxed, laid back and more routine then I thought it would …

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Lost Some Weight, Found Myself

05/10/2019

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Sometime in November of last year. I made the decision to get back in shape and lose some weight. I jumped on the Keto craze and after resisting temptation and finding alternatives to sweets. Came to really enjoy the diet.

I’ve always enjoyed working out and had gotten into a comfortable rhythm until I had some back issues. I’m slowly working back up to my four to five days.

But, I noticed that what initially made me want to lose weight was that I didn’t have my same personality and I wasn’t happy. I was an introvert. Which i won’t say that I’m the textbook example of an extrovert. I am friendly, I enjoying having conversations. However, I’m don’t like talking to just hear myself. I usually can also make friends easily. But, at my current job I realized that the job itself and my unhappy body image was making my grouchy, fat, and unhappy. I talked to some people but I mostly scowled at people and kept to myself. I wasn’t wearing make-up or dressing cute. I usually dress how I feel. So i just I was looking how I was feeling…shitty.

I should also say my job was stressful with less than ideal pay.

After seeing myself get back to a more manageable weight. I’ve started to recognize myself physically and emotionally. The old me is starting to peek her head out and enjoy life. Along with finally admitting that things haven’t gone the way I wanted after graduating from college. I’m doing alright and that’s just fine.

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Ashley

Happy New Year!!

01/03/2019

So, I won’t be posting this weeks scheduled review and reaction to Let’s Eat 3. Apologies! Since, it’s the 3rd day of the 2019. I just wanted to talk about how 2018 treated me…..like it’s bitch. I think that quickly sums it up.

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But….really, last year was the year of growth and challenges. At first I was not feeling it. I was a lot more introverted for most of last year and did more soul searching. I finally stopped punishing myself for a mistake I made back in 2015. One that caused me to change the inital path I wanted to take after graduating. After some googling and researching. I found a way to keep the same goal. Just an alterative route. Think I might even enjoy this path more than the one I originally laid out.

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I tore myself down, and I built myself back up by the time my birthday came around. I feel a lot more confident and ready for anything. After figuring out all the questions that nagged me during entire the process.

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I dipped a toe back into the dating. Even attempting to talk to somebody. I wasn’t feeling it for the most part, and was like fuck it. I got other stuff I need to work on at the moment. I also wasn’t feeling any connection. I think I’ll apologize to the person who admently kept trying for a while, and I basically lead him on. He’s a good guy and I wasted his time. But, he did display some fuckboi tendencies and that’s what made me leary for the most part.

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New Year’s Resolutions? It’ll be the same one I’ve been making. Do better than I did last year. I will also include learn how to whistle with my hand and learn how to braid my own hair.

How do you think 2018 treated you? Are you making any resolutions this year?

Ashley

I went out for my birthday this past weekend. After watching myself ride a mechanical bull. I was mortified to really saw how big I look, and it made me upset. I didn’t think I looked THAT big!!! I knew I wasn’t as small as I used to be!! But, GOT DAMN!! I signed up …

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